Alas, it has been only less than a single week, and yet you grieve my absence as if I have been gone for some eight or nine days to a far, remote location such as … Yellowstone, or some other secluded location. The o-so-adequate explanation for my nonattendance? – simple laziness. Tis true, for even a soul such as myself must rejuvenate this rotting piece of flesh that I inhabit by getting some shut-eye in every once in a while. Don’t worry, you haven’t missed much from my lack of updates. For the most part, the days have been fairly uneventful. Today, however, was a plus. This morning Palmer and myself woke up and put several hours of tedious labour into finishing the prototype phase of our kite. Yes, the good ‘ol kite project. You know the drill… build a three-dimensional kite that flies. Make it go high. Big deal. Well, our kite flies… very high in fact, and it is quite steadfast in the air. The design is simple… perhaps too simple. It is a plain box-kite. But, it flies and looks good, so who’s complaining? - That would be me.

After our test flight where one of the main four support rods in the kite snapped in two different places upon hitting the ground, I went home, put in some Mettallica, and dazed off for a few. I later decided to get online for the first time in four days. I know… unbelievable. Upon logging in, I was, of course, bombarded by the hundreds of fans wanting to know where I have been as of late. It would seem that in my absence, these unfortunate souls went through a type of… dark ages, if you will. But fear not, lest ye be lost in the maze of chaos that is the world, for I am here, and you may now rest your weary eyes on this page of beautiful grayscale colours, and submerse yourself in the blissful melodies that ring forth from your computer speakers.

After being online for several minutes, I was invited to a Holy Cross youth gathering, with the profound title of "September Surprise." It was a fun time of fellowship and music. There was a brief bible study and an hour or so of volleyball and ping pong! There were two representatives from WayFM 90.7 there to advertise the station and give some things away. I ended up winning the Skillet: Collide album which made my day, since I love that CD. I was wearing my Music Piracy t-shirt tonight, and one of the WayFM ladies was actually a fellow pirate. She also had a strange infatuation for my hair. Hmm… she ended up requesting that I pose for her, which I did, while drinking a can of pop. Strange… but she told me to check the website in the next several days, because I would likely show up on there. Go me. One step closer to completing my plan of total world domination, because I am that much more famous. The only downside of the night was watching a certain lame WayFM DVD explaining the station’s purpose, etc… blah blah blah. Is the Sandman on Friday nights now that WayFM replaced ZFM? Nope. They don’t even play anything harder than "Savior" by Skillet, yet they continually tell us that their goal is to play music that can reach nearly anyone. Yet it must be too difficult to set aside a measly 4 or 5 hours a week for heavy metal. So much for reaching "everyone." Ahh… tis sad, indeed.

Myself and Emily had a very close ping-pong competition, in which she barely pulled into the lead towards the end, beating me by just a few points. She has a wicked backhand swing, and has no fear at all when it comes to diving for that ball. She’s a competitive one, that Emily. Everyone else was busy playing volleyball, of course. Team sports are so overrated.

Friday night I watched that several hour long interview and documentary of the guy who cut his own arm off with a swiss army knife to free himself from being wedged in between several boulders. Quite an interesting story. I just might have to read his book.

I’m already sick of this layout. I need change… more of it. I think I’ll change to a more colorful layout soon. I have one in mind already…

History test tomorrow. No studying done at all on my part. Heck, I didn’t even bring home my book or notes. I have so much more disregard towards school this year than I did last. Probably because I figured out how easy it is "just to get by," in the words of the great Pillar… and countless other philosophers, I’m sure.

Not much else to say. I’m tired, thirsty, and… tired. Just sick and tired. Of way too many things to mention them all tonight. Heck, I’m not even going to put lyrics on here this time. If I did though, they would be "Open Wounds" by Skillet. That song hit me hard tonight as I was listening to it. Alright… fair thee well,

-Dustin

So, I am finally 'home' after my 3 day trip to Kentucky.  Now.. I understand - it was only 3 days.  But you know what?  I'm STILL going to tell you what happened.  You think Nathan will do this for his 57 day long trip to Yellowstone?  I think not.  But NOW he probably will, just to spite me. 

Friday:  *dun Dun DUN*  Woke up at... 3am... arrived in Cincinnati at like... 8:30 or something like that.  Drove to Falmouth (yes.. Falmouth... as in Fowl Mouth) Kentucky and ... watched TV for like 4 hours to "rest up."  Went to lunch... stopped by my dads company (we'll just call it 'the plant' from here on out.. tis easier.. since its a factory thing)... said hi to everyone... at lunch (pizza).... Uhmmm... I forgot.  Ya, I forgot everything else.  So sue me.  I know we did SOMETHING....

Saturday:  Woke up at 11, watched TV, did some stuff.... nothing very interesting.. but I DID go to UpStarCrow Tim!  O ya.. Jazz club/restaurants rock it out!

Sunday:  Ya, here's the fun stuff.  Okay, so we woke up.. late... and decided to *dun dun* Go KAYAKING!  O ya.. this was my third Kayake trip.. and I LOVE it!  Its so much fun.  Okay...

Miles Kayaked (on this trip): 18
Otters spotted:  1
Mutant rat/cat/camels spotted:  1
Crawfish spotted:  32583
Crawfish Caught:  0
Watersnakes spotted:  3
Times Capsized (cause of hardcore rapids):  1
Times Capsized (because I tried to 'surf' the kayake while going over rapid): 1
Energy Drinks Drunkin:  4
"Fun Sized" 3 Musketeers Eaten:  16

Yes... that's a summary.  Great fun, right?  Yes, it WAS. 
So, sometime during Saturday (i think), I went to see Napolean Dynamite.  Why?  Only because I'd had about 7 million people tell me to see it, and because for some psycho reason, Bryce has seen it all of * 9 * times.  Yes.. 9.  I don't think I could handle it one more time, honestly.  Okay, so there were some (as in a few) funny parts, but they sure didnt make me laugh.  Nope - not even a titter.  I pretty much despised that movie.  And so sorry Ashton.. cause you evidently enjoyed it :)  There's my shpeil for THAT movie...
SOmetime during the last 4 or 5 days, I've watched Catch That Kid.  Because my sister rented and watched it.  It sucked, cause it was a family movie, but it wasnt nearly as bad Agent Cody Banks.  Ah... I hate family movies. 
I watched Hidalgo last night.  I personally thought that they could have picked some better acting talent for the movie.  Vigo was the only one that could act.  Honestly... .  Overall it wasn't too bad of a movie, but I think the movie in general needed a lot more polish to be released.  It just didn't seem very professionally done.
On... Friday, I watched The Butterfly Effect with Ashton Kutcher.  Dang... honestly, this is one of my new favorite movies.  DEFINATELY goes on the top 20 list.  Ya... the story was deep, the whole movie kept me thinking, and there was enough drama and action to keep the stroy moving.  At the end of the movie, I found myself thinking "I want to read this book."  Unfortunatly, there ISNT a book that I am aware of, but I'm going to check it out later.
And last but surely not least - Secret Window.  Wow... I loved this movie.  Seriously, this one tops Butterfly Effect.  The story was ingenious - of course, it was written by Stephen King - and I'll definately read the book soon.  But the thing was, there was actually some good acting talent in this movie, which is a little strange for a Stephen King movie.  Usually he gets low budget actors for those.  THis one though has Johnny Depp as the star.  Amazing actor, really.  European actor of the year as a matter of fact.  You like Pirates of te Carribean?  He pretty much acts that good in all of his movies.  Every one of his movies he looks totally different, and jsut has a different character.  He's good.  Real good.  The movie kept me guessing all the way through it, seriously, and in one part, I actually laughed out loud - no joke.  Usually when I watch a movie, even a comedy at home, I don't laugh.  I mean.. that sounds lame, but heck, why would I?  THis movie made me laugh though.  It rocks.  Awesome movie - watch it!  Tis only PG-13. 

O what else... .  You know what?  You dont need anything else.  I updated.  SO who cares.  An updates an update... .  Hear me TIM?  Hmm NATHAN? Mr "I have wireless internet and you DONT!  hahaha... I can update while I'm at YELLOWSTONE!  haha... Your a loser Dustin you have DIAL-UP!  I can update while I'm gone!"  etc... etc... etc.  Ya.. rubs it in, then dissapoints us all.  Gosh...

Wait, I almost forgot!  Lyrics of the day.. even though no-one reads these :P  They're fun for me though, so I dont care! 
O crap... I just went to Moozik Jamz, and guess what?  On the 10th, they are closing.  Great.

Well here's the lyics to the new song...

SOTRY OF THE YEAR
"Anthem of our Dying Day"

The stars will cry
The blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
And here I am
Pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly
Exactly what I need

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face
If you were hear
I swear I wont miss a beat
Cause I never
Never have before

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

Of our dying day
Of our dying day
Of our dying!!!

For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
And you gasp for air tonight!!

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

Our dying day
Of our dying!!!
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Ya, good song. 

Well, fairwell for now.  School starts tomorrow - o greatest joy.  At least it's spiritual emphasis week.  Hopefully the work load will be lighter, and maybe we'll even have a non-uniform day.  (outside of ministry day).  I'm going to El Dorado, where r YOU going?

This one actually will be short. Why? Because I have to "wake up" in 4 hours. Yes, at 3am in the morning. To get on an airplane. To go to Kentucky. Well, technically Cincinnati, Ohio, but after that, I go to Kentucky. I’m seriously considering just pulling an all-nighter. I could easily make it. The only problem is, I'm still going right now on my 5 hours of sleep from LAST night. So an all-nighter might not be the best of ideas. I should settle for the 4 hours of sleep I COULD get tonight. Hmm… decisions decisions.

Last night I watched Bless the Child. It was a pretty good movie over-all. Nothing special though. It was basically about a little girl being born as the second baby Jesus – as his return. Good philosophy and general storyline, but poorly directed. My favorite part was when the head honcho satan worshiper was trying to get the 6-year old girl (Jesus!) to join him, he led her to a roof-top and showed her the city. He offered it all to her, just like Satan did when Jesus went to the wilderness. When she said she didn’t want it, and that it was his domain, he told her to jump off the roof, and if "her" God is real, then angels would carry her to safety. After several seconds, she was crying and bawling, he was yelling "JUMP! JUMP!" at her, when all of a sudden, she turned around and says, "You first!" just smiles. I thought it was so true. Satan is the biggest hypocrite of all time. What a loser J

Movies are so awesome. I’m just a big movie fan all-around. But not as much as music! I couldn’t live without music. I remember playing this old Super Nintendo game, where music is outlawed completely in the future, and you play a rock and roll rebel that goes around playing music, trying not to get caught. Sheesh… watch that be my nightmare tonight. *shudders *

Lyrics of the day…

Artist:	Skillet
Album:	Collide
Song:	Under My Skin

When I feel you close to me
It’s easy to believe
To the depths and back again
To find that I’m still needing
Feel the fear dissipate
When you are everything you are
Feel my soul come awake
You carry me away

When I hurt, when I bleed
You’re holding me
Feel you scratching at the surface
Under my skin (2x)

Oh, under my skin (2x)

Oh the sweet serenity
I’m beautifully addicted
You are more than I can take
I crave you undiluted
You calm the ache, I come awake
When you are everything you are
Feel the fear dissipate
You carry me away

When I hurt, when I bleed
You’re holding me
Feel you scratching at the surface
Under my skin (2x)

Oh, under my skin (2x)

Oh, yeah

Could I be lost
Could I disappear
Could I be lost
Would you find me here?
Could I be lost in a secret place?
Could I rest in the shadow of your face

Oh the sweet
(Could I be lost, could I disapper?)
Serenity
(Could I be lost, would you find me here?)
Beautifully
(Could I be lost in a secret place?)
A part of me
(Could I rest in the shadow of your face?)

When I hurt, when I bleed
You’re holding me
Feel you scratching at the surface
Under my skin (2x)

Oh, under my skin (4x)

Alright, here’s hoping I’ll make it through the weekend *cheers.*

Your fro-d out friend,

-Dustin

Today was a good day. An A-day, but a fairly good day nonetheless. On A-days I have…

A1- US History 1
A2- Spanish 2
A3- Physics
A4- Geometry

So basically, I have the hardest and core classes on A-days, except for Spanish, which isn’t quite a ‘core’ class, but the class that I ‘struggle’ in the most. So, I don’t exactly enjoy it. And on top of that, we have to do hand motions for each vocabulary word as we go to get participation points, and I’m not too big on participation in that class, so it’s not a good situation.

There were lots of fun things that happened today at school, though! During break, Tim and Bri played the piano… Tim playing his version of "Majority Rules" (props to me for remember the name) and Bri played her very own "Conclusion in White."

Earlier that day, in first hour, we were discussing the Black Plague in History class, and Bri said something like "You should write a POEM about the Black Plague!" Well, in Physics, I was exceptionally bored, so I took her up on it. I fell like posting it… so I will. Don’t you feel special.

The Black Plague

The black plague comes
The black plague goes
20 million die
Ashes it snows

Dance around the rosies
Be wary – don’t touch the dead
Don’t leave without your posies
You might not wake from bed
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That was pretty fun to write. Kind of morbid. I thought it was pretty funny when Bri cracked up as she was reading it. Maybe it’s because I have no clue if "rosies" is/was a word, NOR do I have any idea what the heck "posies" are. I like the first stanza though. 20 million Europeans died from the plague – one third of Europe’s population at the time. When so many bodies would be gathered up, they would have to burn them by the hundreds sometimes, and when they did, nearby villages might receive a brief snowfall of ashes. Very sad…

Aside from the day at school, after school was even more fun. Everyone hung out for a few minutes after the bell rang, but eventually most everyone left, except Emily who took pity on my pitiful soul and hung out with me after school for a while. Actually, like and hour. So props to Emily for making my day that much better! We talked and played drums (ya… right) and then went and sat in her car for a while, listening to Vegitales and NYG worship songs. After a while, we tried to send an audio message to her blog, but it was "temporarily down for service." We tried again later (after laughing at all of the uber-tired cross country people) and managed to get through and record some messages. Well… only intentionally recorded one of them. So GO and listen.

Thanks to Ashton, my selection of free music-code sites has expanded. On that new site, I found the song "Silhouettes" by Smile Empty Soul. I love this song… It’s just my type of music. Well, not really, but for a slow(er) song, it rocks. I posted the lyrics for it way back in the day when my blog was still blue, but since it was so long ago… they will now receive the not-so-exciting honor of being my lyrics of the day.

SMILE EMPTY SOUL
"Silhouettes"

silhouettes above the cradle hold me down
they won't let me go the wrong way
my mother taught me all the fables, told me how
in the end all the sinners have to pay
but...

[Chorus:]
i don't wanna live like my mother
i don't wanna let fear rule my life
and i don't wanna live like my father
i don't wanna give up before i die

he worked so hard his bones are breaking
he wore them down but long ago he lost the feeling
his good intentions leave me shaking, show me how
i don't ever want to end up like he did
and...

[Chorus]

when i have kids
i won't put any chains on their wrists, i won't
i'll tell them this
there's nothing in this world that you can't be if you want it enough

[Chorus x2]
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I know… I’ve been avoiding it. Mostly because the ache I feel in the deepest pit of my soul when I think about it. But yes, this very day, Mettallica graces the senses of thousands of Kansans and probably hundreds of non-Kansans as well. Why do I ache? Because I think of how Mettallica hasn’t been to Wichita in over 20 years, which brings me to think… when will they be back? In 20 years, some of the band might be dead. Honestly, with Lars’s heart problems, he’ll probably croke any time now. At least it will be a better death than their first drummers… or was that the bass guitarist? I can’t quite remember. Anyways, I will not be there at the concert, thank you very much. Some day… I will make a road trip and see them in concert. Yes… someday. Waha… Dan can come… but who else? Road trips require more than 4 people guys… Ya. Someday… *sobs quietly *

It’s amazing how I can ramble on just one little topic isn’t it? They say a picture is worth a thousand words. I say a thousand words are worth a heck of a lot more than one picture. If you agree with the original saying though… then why the heck did you read all of this? I mean… it’s only been 786 words so far… so why not just go look at a picture?

Every little second is time

And every word seems to rhyme…

-Dustin

   Today was one of those days when I sat back during class, and just thought about how much I'm missing in life. Ya, it sounds pathetic, but tis true.  I can't go to the Metallica concert tomorrow, and the simple truth is that I probably won't EVER get to see the greatest rock band in the world in concert unless I was there tomorrow night.  But it won't happen.  I couldn't go to jugo juice today with Emily, Ashton, and Alisha either, but at least I know that the opertunity for THAT might come up again.  Life can sure dissapoint, but then again, it can fulfill your wildest dreams, or so they say.

   School went well today, if not alittle more stressful than usual.  Tyler and Mrs. Posson had a short little scuff, but nothing serious.  I'm excited about being part of the school newspaper this year especially.  Here's some top-secret classified information you might be interested in... we are going to have a "of the month" page! Yes, QUOTE of the month, POSE of the month, ART DRAWING of the month, etc.  It shall be so glorious you will fall to your knees in it's brilliance.  Tyler's also got an excellent Brick Shtick typed up, so you'll want to look foward to that. That is... unless he changes it and writes another one. Hopefully we can get him to keep the original this time :)  .

Lyrics of the day.... be an excellent song.  Evanescence has a song for every mood.  This is one to listen to when your bored, or just a little mellowed out.  Or MAYBE... when it's raining.
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EVANESCENCE
"Listen To The Rain"

(Rain)

Listen listen
Listen listen
Listen listen
Listen listen
Listen (listen) listen (listen)
Listen (listen) listen (listen)
Listen (listen) listen (listen)
Listen listen

Listen to each drop of rain (listen listen)
Aaah
Whispering secrets in rain (listen listen)
Aaah
Frantically searching for someone to hear
That story be more than it hides
Please don't let go
Can't we stay for a while?
It's just to hard to say goodbye
Listen to the rain

Aa...ah
Listen listen listen listen listen listen to the rain
Weeping
Oo...ooh oooh ooh oo...ooh
Oo...ooh oooh oh oh

Listen (listen) listen (listen)
Listen (listen) listen

I stand alone in the storm (listen listen)
Suddenly sweet words take hold
(Listen listen)
Hurry they stay for you haven't much time
Open your eyes to the love around you
You may feel you're alone
But I'm here still with you
You can do what you dream
Just remember to listen to the rain

oo...ooh oh oh oh oh
ooh ooh oh oh oooh
Listen
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Since I'm a little tired and currently have a short attention span, which is shortening by the minute, I shall soon close.  But first, let me leave you with this intriguing thought, from the book entitled "Meditations," by Rene Descartes. (ya, it's an OLD book).
How do you know that this life... this world, is nothing but a dream? THere's no way to prove that we aren't all alseep right now. Or maybe it's just me. Maybe I'm simply dreaming, dreaming inside a dream.  And one day... I'll wake up, somewhere in Mongolia.  It's entirely possible.  Unlikely? I don't even think its unlikely at all. 

Another day gone by, another one ahead.  Maybe I'll update again later.  Maybe.  For now...

-Dustin

Unfortunate as it may seem, this entry must be very limited. 

Mowed the lawn today, didnt care if it was short or not, I lowered the blade anyway. I guess it was just a plus that the grass happened to be worthy of a cutting.  I just needed to get out of the house, as sad as it may seem.  Today at school was awesome, a very good day for an A-day. Even after school was fairly fun... wait, it was REALLY fun, once me and Emily got going in a microphone convo. Actually, it was somehwat of a one-way convo.. well maybe a one and a half-way convo. Its difficult to explain.  Especially when your tired, even though you've just drank 2 cans of pepsi... caffeine free pepsi.  You'd think the sugar would do something, but not for me.  My PU's sass me all the time about drinking pop before bed. You'd think one day they will just stop being so prejudiced and see the light, but they never learn.  Constantly judging before they know the facts.  Here's a pet peeve - LAW.  So, because it's the LAW, I guess it HAS to be true and pure of intentions.  Ya... close-minded people. You make me angry!

Still working on the layout... I've run into quite a few problems.  Especially with IwebMusic, of whom I have obviously stopped using.  Their selection of Slipknot and Evanescence tracks will be missed, but for now, I will settle for a virus-free music hoster, Cerulean Dream.  I've fixed the "I support" section over there --> and am still working on some other section(s).  I need to find some kind of script that encourages user-interactivity, or so says every web page design book in the world. As far as I'm concerned, READING the site is as much interactivity as you can get, why try and out-do it?  I also fixed the header picture a little, made it much wider, so that there wasnt that ugly black space to the rightside of it. y the way, these corrections are only what I can see. If you see something different thatn what I describe or say, or even just found a problem or something you don't like, just drop me a comment, I'll take it to heart.

As you can hopefully hear by now, I've got some new music.  This song is dedicated to JACIE, cause she rocks, and I know she likes this song.  :)  Have an awesome amazing day Jacie. Don't let anything get you down!

WIth new music, I guess it seems proper to have the lyrics of the day be of the same song.  Hence.. the lyrics.
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CHEVELLE
Send the Pain Below

I liked,
Having hurt,
So send the pain below,
Where I need it.

You used to beg me,
To take,
Care of things,
And smile at the thoughts,
Of me failing.

But long before,
Having hurt,
I’ll send the pain below,
I’ll send the pain below.

Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating (I’ll send the pain below),
Much like suffocating (I’ll send the pain below).

You used run me away,
All while laughing,
Then cry about that fact,
Til my returns.

But long before,
Having hurt,
I’ll send the pain below,
I’ll send the pain below.

Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating (I’ll send the pain below),
Much like suffocating (I’ll send the pain below),
Much like suffocating!

I can’y feel my chest (chest, chest),
Anymore,
Drop down,
Cause I am, (? )
I can’t feel my chest (chest, chest) (rahh!!!.)
Drop down! (rahhhhhh!!!.)

I liked,
Having hurt,
So send the pain below,
So send the pain below (much like suffocating) (I liked),
So send the pain below (much like suffocating) (having hurt),
So send the pain below (much like suffocating),
So send the pain below (much like suffocating),
So send the pain below.

  Several hours ago I sat down at my computer desk and began to rant and rave. After about an hour of doing so, I went upstairs to get some food, then came down and read over what I had typed. Basically, today was horrible. It just sucked. Almost everything about this afternoon and evening drives me crazy.
   However, once I read it all over, I decided to scratch it and start over. I just don't want to fill up this blog with the mindless ranting that seems to come out of me when I'm angry. Now, when I'm depressed, that’s another story. It seems that my best stuff works its way out through depression. But not when I'm angry. When I'm angry, I've figured that I just need to write it all down/type it all up, then walk away from it for a while. By the time I come back to it, hopefully I will have cooled down some, and won't even feel the slightest temptation to post it. That's not saying that I wont ever rant on this blog ;) They just wont be mindless. More like "intelligent complaints."

   I started reading "Wild at Heart" by John Eldridge today. I've made it a goal to really immerse myself into this book, and to take its words to heart. I only finished chapter one, which is all we are supposed to have read by Tuesday, but I'm also trying to take it slowly, and have enough time in between concepts to adapt to them... if that makes sense. I even used highlighter as I went to mark sentences or ideas that stood out to me. Hopefully I will find the time to go through this book more than once.

   Last night I watched "Cold Mountain." I have to honestly say that its one of the best movies I have ever seen. And please… don’t take that lightly. I never thought a war story about a soldier and his gal could be so heartrending (and yes, I have seen Gone With the Wind). Taking place before and during the start of the Civil War, the story is of a soldier who goes off to fight, but as the war progresses and the letters from his sweetheart keep coming, he realizes that he needs to return to her, and sets off as a deserter. With a surprise ending that actually surprised me, the movie was just amazing. If a single movie could drive me to becoming a pacifist, this would be it. I do like to think of myself as a pacifist, although I realize that I probably make a horrible one, being as how I have a tendency to play violent video games and watch violent movies. Even still, though, I cannot help but marvel at the futility of war. I say this in especial regards to the Civil War, in which I believe America lost those millions of her children through war, yes, but not a necessary war. It was a war against itself. Somehow, I think America had a sort of schitso attack during those four cold years.

  -By the way, even though I consider the ideas of a pacifist to be much more appealing than that of war, I still hold the very highest respect for those in the service. Although I see war as futile, it also seems to be inevitable, and where that inevitability comes in, there is a necessity for service men. They are the ones with courage enough to protect those who do not have that same courage, and I respect that.

   I just finished watching the X-Files. Wow… I just can’t tell you how much I love that show. Sadly, I’ve just recently begun to watch it every week, but I’m a total addict now, barely being able to wait for my next fix. Yep… that’s me, the paranormal junky. This weeks episode was about a girl who’s father was murdered, ergo he continued to walk the earth as a spirit entity to protect his daughter from his own murderers. Every time an attack was made on her, he would intercede and end up killing them, drawing Agent Mulder and Skully’s attention to his daughter. Since the victim’s throats were crushed from inside out, it was put in an X-File.
Ooo I love the X-files! J

   Well now.. I almost forgot! Lyrics of the day.  Tim mght be the only one to recognize these, but that's okay. I'm not asking you to read them, I'm just putting them here in case you would like to. O, a breif quote from Alien Vs. Predator...

Girl #1: "20 years on the ice and I've never seen a gun save someone's life."
Girl #2: "I'd rather have a gun and not need it then need a gun and not have it."

Yes... good movie. Now, the lyrics...

Artist:	Demon Hunter
Album:	Demon Hunter
Song:	My Throat Is An Open Grave

We lay face in pale solitude.
To save face, we pulled our walls in front of you.
To the same place where we danced in front of you.
We fell from grace and watched the hope'fall from your face.
This isn't me i used to say.
All the love was so gone.
It feels good to be alive.
I've been dead for so long: and all the broken promises.
I can't face. Afraidif someone notices, I lose my place.
Fractured, broken, paralyzed.
I need some space, tear me open, analyze.
This isn't me i used to say.
All the love was so gone.
It feels good to be alive.
I've been dead for so long.
Wake up screaming, I'm awake and dreaming,
And i won't stop breathing until my heart stops beating.
This isn't me, i used to say.
All the love was so gone, It feels good to be alive,
I've been dead for so long.

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By the time you read this, it may be morning, it may be afternoon after school, but either way, I’m still saying goodnight, in hopes that it will, indeed be a good one.

Now I’ll just put on my "Most Relaxing Jazz Music in the World" CD and drift away. I’ll let my brain secrete that glorious protein that puts our bodies in the state we call "sleeping" and let my imagination run wild. Cause ya… that’s what happens J .

-Dustin

   Seeing as how I've already put quite a bit of time into this blog, I thought it would be appropriate to dedicate it to... something.  Last night, I had no idea what that something would be, but this morning when I was adding some finishing touches to the layout (notice the section entitled "In Life...", I had the Blindside CD "About a Burning Fire" playing, and I suppose that it just came to me right then. At least thats how I'd like to think it happened.  Anyways, I am dedicating the new shpiffy blog to the song "Roads" by Blindside.  Some of you *Ashton* might already be thinking "eww a heavy metal song," but this song is actually a really slow acoustic guitar song.  I dont know what it is with me, but almost always, some of my favorite songs on a metal CD are the slow ones. Maybe it's because it's in those songs that the singer/band step outside of their ususal routine, and just get on their knees and worship in whatever way comes to them. Well... thats my opinion. So, this song "Roads" just pretty much outlines why I have a blog at all in the first place. It reminds me that although life can really really sucks sometimes, when its good - its REALLY good, and its in those brief instances that our pathetic human minds catch glimpses of the purpose of life. Why we go on every single day, even though we only drive ourselves further and further into a hole that we will never be able to climb out of. Every day we come closer to a cure for cancer, which will undoubtably save millions of lives, yet at the same time, every day we manage to discover new ways to kill each other, all the while overpopulating the earth and lowering the bar on ethics as we go.  We still go on, though, most of the time taking every second for granted.  Maybe that's what this song is about... cherishing every last minute of life. But don't ask me... I'm just another blogger, sitting here typing out my thoughts, when I could be spreading the word by mouth. Why?  That IS the question.

Artist: Blindside
Album: About A Burning Fire
Song: Roads

Last night
Stopping by
Greeting me with an embracing bad breath
Five A.M.
You woke me out of a restless R.E.M.
I think it's time
To sober up and die

Every little second is precious time
And every word seems to rhyme
I follow every word like streetlight
To make it home all right
Every little second flies
I hold on to them like pieces of paradise
I follow every word like streetlights
I want to fall in love and leave tonight

Been riding in the sunset
Ignoring what follows after beauty
Fades to black
Just riding in the sunset
Now this paralyzing cold
Always come crawling back
I think it's time
To sober up and live

Every little second is precious time
And every word seems to rhyme
I follow every word like streetlight
To make it home all right
Every little second flies
I hold on to them like pieces of paradise
I follow every word like streetlights
I want to fall in love and leave tonight
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Take a second and comment if you choose, comments are ALWAYS awesome, no matter the tone.

Yo brother,
-Dustin

   In a sudden, uncanny decision, I have moved my blog to piecebypiece.blogdrive.com. I don't know why i decided to do this, so please, do not ask me. I DO however, know that i will most likely miss my old blog very soon. Have no fear, I saved all of the code and pictures so that i can switch back to it at my will.  I am, hoever going to try my very hardest to stick with this one for a long while.
   Thanks to design.blogdrive.com for the layout, it is appreciated. I did make the header picture and other pictures on ths blog myself though, even if the original picture came from digitalblasphemy.com... I stil came up with the text and such myself.  Yes... it totally came to me randomly. Go me.  I also deleted my area51.blogdrive.com blog, simply because i decided i was wasting my time with it (2 entries in 2 months isnt a very good way to start a blog, anyhow).  
   I am aware that stepbystep.blogdrive.com took an extremely long time to load on most computers, or for anyone with dial-up internet *cough not nathan cough*, so that obviously contributed to the list of reasons to switch to this one.  Hopefully this site won't crash any of your computers, either, but if you have any problems with this site whatsoever, please tell me right away! 
   Eh.. enogh with the fancy shmancy boring "proper english" mumbo jumbo.  THis is my new blog... at least for a good while. If you don't like it.. then leave.  This is where i come to when I'm angry, when I'm happy, when I'm depressed, and when I'm lonely.  If you arent prepared to read my vivid descriptions of any of the above mentioned emotions... then you shouldnt even be blogging at all. 
   Roit... on another note... I am working on getting the new blog to feel all homy again... getting some music back (can I get a whoot whoot for iwebmusic?), get some cool javascripts *maybe* and some ... *gasp* blinkies and banners! SO, be patient with me during this stressful time of change. Waha... there's my shpeil and my pathetic first entry for piecebypiece.blogdrive.com. You'd think I could come up with something more shpicy than "stepbystep" and "piecebypiece" but nope, thats it.  O well... no-one could ever top the joys of typing "babyfunkymonkey" out anyways, so why bother?  Hey... now THERE's a good life philosophy. Ya.. right. 
 Signing out...

-Dustin

P.S. ::: To support me and my blogs, ergo benefitting the blogger community as a whole, please send spare change, rolls of 20's, counterfeit money, illegal narcotics, blank checks, car keys, PayPal account information, credit card numbers and house keys to Dustin Deckard, 27789 N.E. Farmsville Road, Rose Hill Kansas, 23666.  ALL donations will be accepted, even if they suck, in which case they will be put onto Ebay with a coracopia of History-related keywords, with a targeted buyer of the name of Mrs. Eileen Cunningham, who will procede by purchasing the item, then passing around to all of her classes, whether it be relevant to the subject at hand or not.  Thank you for your time, but since time = money, next time can u NOT visit my blog and just give me money?  ... jk.